Poetry: “QUADTINA TO GET MYSELF OVER ME” by Kit Siskin

Perfect for Valentine’s Day, we see Kit Siskin’s quadtina, which is a variation of the sestina, a poetic form requiring six stanzas of six lines with a final triplet, with the final words of each line repeating in a specific order. In the quadtina, we have four stanzas and a final couplet. Siskin attempts this difficult and little-known form perhaps in order to bring a feeling of control in response to the powerful emotions that threaten to spill forth from in between the repetitions; the motif of the cow, chewing cud, seems as if it would be heavy, dragging the poem down and into a frustrating and alienating place, but Siskin brings tension and electricity to every line. The juxtaposition of the self, the nature of attraction, and the inventive approach that Siskin takes to language (“a crowd of unsheathed grins,” and “horns laden and attractive” come to mind) with the cow and the repetitive, drumbeat of the form itself, gives a new and surprising voice to the cow, the self, the quadtina, love, envy, attraction, and Siskin himself. The poem is doing some heavy lifting. Siskin is rewriting what we think we know, and what more can you expect from a Hallmark Holiday, really?
QUADTINA TO GET MYSELF OVER ME
and now i sit down to swallow
mothballs again again a cow chewing
its overexamined cud sideshow attraction
for myself alone I’ve spit up envy
as prerequisite to attraction always envied
who i could be: a bull unswallowing
the sword from his third stomach attracting
a crowd of unsheathed grins eyes that chew
my every movement as i spit unchewed
the mothballs & now applause now a tithe to envy
i am not the bull horns laden and attractive
with jewelry still i am not the cow dutifully swallowing
the gleaming cud i am the mothballs i swallow
myself as an antidote to myself i chew
myself as an anecdote of attraction
i swallow my sweet naphthalene blade and envy
the self who doesn’t envy the self who chews
the self who quietly swallows the self & shuns attraction
Kit Siskin
Kit Siskin (he/him) is a little guy making his home in Berkeley, CA. He can often be found running events in the local tabletop RPG scene, chatting with the birds, or walking to nowhere in particular.